Not so Nice of a Day

Dear Hope,

So I have to share the phone call I received today…  So around 11am I answered my cell phone and to my surprise a women was calling from Monmouth Medical Center.  This is kinda how it went… 

“Hi, I am calling from Monmouth Medical Center, is this Katie?” 

I said, “Yes” (thinking OMG is someone sick, is something wrong)

She then said she was from the Insurance Department (only thing I could think of was if I still owed money from my D&C procedure from July? But really didn’t want to have to think about that or go over any details).

I said,” Ummmm… OK”

Then she proceeded to say… “I am calling because I have it scheduled that you are coming in shortly to have you baby and I needed to go over a few things.”  

What! I didn’t even know what to say, I was silent for what felt like an eternity then I managed to say…  ” No I actually had a miscarriage in July and I am NOT pregnant.” (Queue the tears)

She was silent for what now felt like an eternity on her end but then she said… “ O… OK… Ummmmm…. This must have been a mistake, Have a Nice Day!” (Now the tears were flowing)

Have a nice day????  What she should have said was… “I am sorry I just disrupted your day and made you feel horrible, I am sorry I not only brought up the fact that you miscarried but that you are still not pregnant.”   I couldn’t believe that just happened! It was so strange and why today??? 

I immediately called Brian and as he answered the phone I just started sobbing.  I explain what happened and he felt horrible! He told me to take a few deep breaths and to keep my head up. (Remember this was in the middle of my work day) Like always he reassured me and told me that we will “Get There” Even though I was feeling a little better I HAD to call my mom.  She always knows what to say to make me feel better and I could definitely use a pep talk.  Sure enough, she made me feel better! Love you Mom!!!!  She said that even though I was sad maybe this was a good omen… a good sign that I will be pregnant soon! I sure hope so…. 

My fertility issues have once again proven to be an everyday challenge.  Just when I think I have my emotions and my head in check something like this happens.  Today is a perfect example…. I was having a good day, pretty distracted with work so not able to think too much about the baby stuff but then one phone call changes my mood for the rest of the day.  I am trying so hard to stay strong and to stay positive but some days my patience and emotions are tested.  Still holding on to HOPE.

Kate