Dear Hope,
It is with complete sadness that I even have to write about this… This week has been one of the most difficult and sorrowful weeks of my life. I am not sure where to begin so I will do my best and start with the beginning of the week…
On Monday Brian and I received a text from his Aunt Maureen that his mom was in a lot of pain and was feeling as though she may be close to the end of her fight. As you all know Eileen had been fighting Pancreatic Cancer and a mix of complications for over the past year. Brian immediately booked a flight out to Arizona and was able to be there that night. I wanted to join him so desperately but being 8 months pregnant we knew it would not be safe for me to travel so far. So as I watched him leave I feared the worst and hated that I couldn’t be with him in what was going to be the hardest time of his life.
The next day January 3rd, Eileen lost her fight to cancer. It had been a long battle and we all wanted her to be out of the horrible pain she was in but, I so desperately wanted her to able to hold in her arms her grandbaby. A friend of my mom’s told me that I didn’t have to fear that Eileen would never meet her… that she now was able to meet her soul in heaven before she was born. I believe in that and I believe that these next 7 weeks until our baby is born, Eileen is holding her and filling her with all the love and knowledge that she will need to be the most amazing little person.
Unfortunately tragedy stuck once again… On Wednesday January 4th, My Uncle Walt was taken from us. After only 6 days in the hospital he died a peaceful death with family all around him. He went in last Thursday to the hospital after not feeling well and they found out he had Pancreatic Cancer that had already spread to his liver and lungs. The disease took over his body so fast that there was nothing the drs could do. Hearing this news was like a nightmare that we couldn’t wake up from. We had just had a wonderful Christmas and although he hadn’t been feeling himself we could have never imagined that only days later he would no longer be here with us. If you knew my Uncle you knew he was one of the most amazing, genuine, loving people you would ever meet. He too was so excited to welcome in our baby girl and I still can’t believe he is gone. But, as I said earlier about Eileen… I know that right now Uncle Walt is up in heaven with her unborn soul… probably dancing with her and telling her a silly joke.
I have to believe things happen for a reason or else all this hard ache would be for nothing… I truly believe that our baby girl has 2 angels looking over her and with that much love she must be destine for greatness. I promise to keep the memories of Eileen and Uncle Walt alive and share the wisdom and love that they have instilled in me.
Rest in Peace
Eileen Gabriel 7/26/51 – 1/3/12
Walt Moroz 7/27/43 – 1/4/12
